December 2009
first day.
one year since i made that promise 364 days since i broke it and i’m still fighting my demons and learning learning to live live with them and i am losing this battle but i am winning this war between my heart and the tips of my fingers black and white keys stay silent before me and today i am just happy i met you …and maybe you dont understand and maybe you dont want to hear but...
yoursummerheart:
heckyeahperiodpieces:lucette:
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yoursummerheart:
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happy birthday, self.
candles burn so bright. <3
dear life,
I dont really like drama. I should work out more. People shouldnt hate. Why do I spend so much time online? RAWR. Tumblr has changed from inspiration to time-wasting for me…. I think because I follow random people and then realize all their posts are of rude people saying unnecessary things on formspring. Gahhh. I just want the pretty pictures. …is that selfish? :( Idk. The...
I know that you're reading this, and I know that...
<3 anddwebreathe:
emptyveins:
(via fuckyeahawkward)
follow:
trivialism gravitysavedme lightdrops beneathmybones aseriesofserendipities windowsdown seaembraces day-breaking hazelweatherfield galaxyrain theuniverseunderground crushes sabino forthewidowsinparadise breaths loveyourchaos. …off the top of my head. yes.
Ngati kameie.
I will wait for you. <3
windowsdown:
I am going to go lay in bed and watch television. SOMEONE COME CUDDLE PLEASE.
gladly! xD
I see you.
this makes me so happy. :) emma, you are incredible, and amazing. you are bright and beautiful and so intelligent and humble and talented and FUNNY and cute and understanding and wonderful. never doubt that. because i know he sees it too. ;) <3333 emmaisaninja:
This time it’s different.
Before, it’s always been about me. How he makes me laugh, makes me smile. How he makes me feel. How...
ranting.
so originally tumblr started out as my private blog, since my parents got facebook and more people started looking at my notes and i just wanted somewhere to spill certain emotions. specifically through typing, since sometimes i just want to type (cause its faster) even though i love writing by hand. idk. it doesnt matter. idk why i’m telling you this except that more people have been...
idk if this is going to work.
the piano thing, i mean. d;aklsjf;iwjf;kwef i’m driving myself crazy. frickety frick.
hi new followers. :)
i hope you are all having a good day and thank you for pressing the + button on my page because that makes my night so much brighter. silly as that sounds. ;) tell me about yourself: http://www.formspring.me/flyingfalling nice to meet you. :)
windowsdown:
flyingfalling:
1. really? its not like you said interracial couples arent ok. just that something about it rubs you the wrong way. and you’re right, everybody has something they feel strangely about, even if we dont quite understand/know the reasons. 2. dear unfollowers, its unwise to judge someone without knowing them, without knowing their hearts, and without knowing their...
More people should unfollow me for having an...
windowsdown:
God damn.
1. really? its not like you said interracial couples arent ok. just that something about it rubs you the wrong way. and you’re right, everybody has something they feel strangely about, even if we dont quite understand/know the reasons. 2. dear unfollowers, its unwise to judge someone without knowing them, without knowing their hearts, and without knowing their...
so.
my biceps hurt.
like hell.
got my license today. :D
turn 17 in 8 days!
party tomorrowwww.
christmas shopping for raw materials is done
now I just have to make the actual gifts from the supplies I bought.
its a good week.
snow tomorrow.
haircut wednesday.
boy’s a douche.
what else is new. ;)
…hahahaha. love you all.
I feel like I'm going through a mid-life crisis.
yes. arcs-en-ciel:
And I am barely 17 yet.
talk to me? :) →
look up.
i’m not ok today, and i couldnt tell you why. there are just little things, little things burying themselves way down deep into the fibers of my heart, slicing from the inside. it feels like cedar springs, to be honest. like driving with my mom, she kept telling me things to fix, which sounds stupid but it made me feel inadequate, like i’m not ready, not ready for the test, not ready...
but if he was murdered by some crystal meth...
hahahaha. didnt realize how serious my brother was when he told me that i’d like this movie. WHATTHEHELL. my mind is blown by how much i laughed at something that totally effing ridiculous. xD. randomthoughts: 1. i literally just questioned the way i spelled “thoughts.” wow. 2. i cleaned my room! it feels so good. 3. importing about 12 cds tonight, i really hope there’s...
(formspring.)
dont worry. everyone feels lonely sometimes.
thank you. sincerely. it’s nice to hear that maybe i’m not as dysfunctional as i feel. :)
ask/tell/speak:
http://www.formspring.com/forms/?766083-FVD9drwn3S
<3
we.speak.in.desperate.voices.
20 Random Statements: Bold What Applies: ` - Under 110 lbs. ` - Over 110 lbs. ` - 5’5” or taller. ` - Shorter than 5’5”. ` - You enjoy wearing make up. ` - Your favorite season is Spring or Fall. ` - Your favorite season is Winter or Summer. ` - You have dark-colored eyes. ` - You have light-colored eyes. ` - You have your license. ` - You do not drive. ` - You have been out of state. ` - You have...
do you believe in love?
is it fair?
http://www.formspring.com/forms/?766083-FVD9drwn3S
dear followers,
i appreciate you caring even if you dont. i appreciate you reading, even when you dont. i appreciate you clicking a heart or clicking the little circular arrows or clicking the little plus sign when you read something of mine. ….stupid as it may sound, it really does help me feel significant. <3
anything is possible if you've got enough nerve. →
what would you do if you knew you could not fail?
Little things.
amen. :):) ILYemmakatharine. <3
emmaisaninja:
It’s just little things I notice.
The way he words things.
It gives me hope. =]
I’m making a list.
So stay tuned.
Best advice I’ve ever heard: “Make him fall for you.”
You know, just be awesome. Be yourself. Make him like you.
It’s incredibly what it does psychologically.
And it’s worked once.
Maybe it’ll work again. =]
things i could be doing right now:
1. studying for history final 2. proofreading my english essay 3. reading 4. cultivating my mind 5. making christmas presents things i WANT to be doing right now: 1. sleeping 2. walking 3. sleepwalking things i absolutely have to get done tonight: 1. study for history. nothing. alright sweet. :D
the closer I look:
the more I realize that I dont actually hate people. really there are many more amazing individuals than I expected. I just have to pay attention to it**. every single person has something incredible within them. ….sometimes it’s just not what we’re looking for. but maybe we shouldnt be so narrow in our views. **new year/birthday resolution. <3
how can i explain.
i hate that i cant understand. :( you have handled this with incredible grace, more than any other 17 year old could hope to muster. and yes, it will be ok. you know that, i know that. but that doesnt make the pain any easier. at all. you have liked him longer and deeper than anyone realizes, i think. and i am sorry i am sorry i am sorry that i set this all in motion (ignorance is such bliss)...